9/9/11

Pain anger rage hate hurt insecurities unloved bitterness cold resentful harmful suicide addiction rejection resentment aloneness despised unforgiveness bottled up emotions stress scared lies

Everyday i wake up with a fake smile just to please everybody
Everynight i go to bed and cry because i know no one will understand
Day by day i live as if nothing is wrong
Night by night i know nothing is right
I'm living a lie i dont belong here
I cant go on living like this
I just want this pain to go away
Why wont the pain STOP
My arms show how much nothing is right in my life
But i know no one sees them becasue i know how to hide it well

8-12-11

This is my cry for help
I'm on my hands and knees begging you to stay
This is my plea to you
I'm waging this battle within myself and I need your help
Oh why won't you stay?
Just hear me out one last time
Whenever I needed you, you were always there
Now that I need you more than ever you are nowhere to be found
You’re leaving me broken and bruised
You’re leaving me to fight this battle myself
I don’t know how much more of this I can take
This is my cry for help
I can’t hold on much longer

You Don't Know The Pain I Have

You don't know the pain you caused me to have
You don't know the sadness I feel or the pain I have to live with
You don't know the sadness I feel
I lie awake at night wondering if we could've been
But I always think no like you said
Maybe someday we will meet again
Maybe this time will be better than the first
For now I just wonder why I have pain, hurt, and sadness
When we meet again I hope it's pleasant
You don't know the pain I have

Thanks To You!

I feel no pain because you cased me to resist pain
Thanks to you i don't feel loved by anyone
You were the one who caused me to be this way and thanks to you I feel alone
Maybe if you hadn't left me I would feel pain and I wouldn't feel unloved
Because of you I feel no pain!
All I feel is anger and hate
All I feel is rejection and fear
Thanks to you
That's all I feel

Why Do We Have People We Don't Want & Want People We Can't Have

Love is a simile for wanting someone
True Love a word meaning praising some one as a god and with the sacrifice of their life
Over time people try to achieve true love but were never satisfied
Why is it we can never be with those that we love
But are with the ones that love us
Love is confusing because it fades
It must be nurtured by hate and likeness
Love is sad because it never works
It always lets you down
Nothing is ever right
It never gets anywhere
Love is a intangible object

Confusion

Confusion controls the mind, body, and soul
It meditates in the mind like a growing tumor
A tumor that won't stop growing
It takes control of your heart
Do you love or hate the one
You once gave your heart to
Your heart is saying you love him
But your mind is saying you hate him
Confusion won't let u choose
Confusion is what you deal with in the life of Love

Love and Hate

Love and Hate are the equals of life
Light and Darkness the equals of power
Whoever said Love is everlasting was wrong
Love has a time frame invisible to all
A time that's unimaginable it's so real
Love is distorted and cruel it has no true reason
No one understands Love but I do
It's an equation that lasts for seconds
Love is a minute but Hate is an hour